Asexuality is a spectrum, and you could absolutely be part of that spectrum if that's how you choose to identify. Many people really don't want to have sex until they have an emotional or romantic connection with someone. Some people only sometimes experience sexual attraction. You're only 18, and people twice or three times your age still don't know if or where they fall on the asexuality spectrum.
Your anxiety around the acts of sex suggest to me that at the very least, it might be a good idea to talk through some of it with a trained and specialized therapist. If you are extremely anxious, it can make all sex painful. I'd suggest talking to a professional as a preventative matter before you try sex. If anything, a trained professional can help you work through some of your fears around it.
If you decide you're somewhere on the asexuality spectrum, that's fine! If you do for now and change your mind later, that's okay too. All sexuality can be fluid, including the spectrum of sexual attraction.

Invite expired again. Totally ready to join.

Oh another queer thread! I'm a queer feedee who loves women of all sizes and is into mutual gaining or being a feeder as well.

You'll find that there are a surprisingly large amount of dominant feedees on here like me that want sub feedees. However, finding someone that's close is what gets difficult.

Radish kimchi, and that's me. Just give me a fork and I can stand there and keep eating it and eating it....

As for other weird combos, I love dill pickles with peanut butter. I can't defend it.

I agree with multiple orgasms! Edging also really helps for me, but multiple orgasms in sex is really where it's at. Have your partner see how many they can really make you have, almost like a game. Believe me, they'll find it satisfying to know just how many times they've pleasured you in a short amount of time.

It's a great fantasy, for sure. I know it would be a lot easier for me to accept, as weird as that sounds. Part of the hangups of gaining always stem from more negative voices in my life trying to guilt me for my choices, though they believe my gain is accidental instead of purposeful.
It would be much easier to explain if I were FORCED to get fat, quickly, than to just do it for the sake of doing it.

I'm a pansexual, cis but gender noncomforming lady, feedee/sometimes feeder! Nice to see another one of these posts going around.

People fall in and out of religions at all ages, and really I'm not too surprised that 20s and 30s tend to be when people realize religion isn't for them. I guess I just don't usually see the harm in most religious doctrines, as long as specific parts aren't used to attack or vilify other groups of people.

Athiest here. Can't really say I have as good of a reason as everyone else that's posted here. Grew up in a non-religious environment and was allowed to explore whatever I wanted. Didn't really enjoy anything that I found, and definitely didn't believe any of it. (At the age of four, I called the children's book of Bible stories "Bad fairytales" to my uncle, who is a pastor.)