Fridgey:
Started as just 6,7
But now It's also 1,2,3,4

EIIe:
When my bf goes down on me it’s very typical for him to also finger my belly button while he is at it...

Another great way to start that association.

He also does it when he sucks on my nipples, which are hella sensitive.

stevita:
I'm usually the same way...which is why I wanted to reinvent the trope. Instead of "impersonal and dominating FA running a farm to fatten up feedees who will be known mostly through statistics and body descriptions" I want to be like "Hi, here's four feedees who end up at this camp and become best friends for life. One of them is a longtime feeder and his partner/feedee just came out as a switch so he's gonna try to put on some weight for her. One is on the run from the law and just trying to distance himself from his mugshot, but falls in love with the kink. One is a cocky celebrity gainer who's going to learn the meaning of friendship and solidarity. And one didn't really read the pamphlet but he's gonna have a good time anyway."

Featuring supporting mentors and on-site classes such as cooking, hunting, and golf; blackjack and darts in the rec room, characters dealing with and overcoming troubled pasts, vices, and personal flaws, and maybe a cute hurt/comfort plot where the career criminal falls for a sweet chubby on-site nurse.

lydsville:
Well, with the type of game I wanted to make (an FMv game) the lines do actually cross over, and I was looking into how would I make the fully CGI scene we'd need for the game.

That and as you said, they have a team, something of which I've felt I've needed this whole time, a group of people who might have the answers and maybe I can better communicate my ideas to.

I've always had issues communicating with people and I'm not sure if that would help either but at the least they may know how to bring my idea to life when I don't.

I agree that less is more, I was trying that in my project and basically felt it needed more, so I don't know how to apply it to me other than to do something easier instead.

My problem isn't I'm actually trying to aim for perfection, it's that my brain won't leave anything alone until it's perfect and therefore I have to make to something perfect or else it's just not something worth anyone's time. I can't help it, it's an actual problem that I have.

Yes, I do need to focus on my health. I'm not sure how far into details I can go but I worked myself to the point of having to fight passing out just the other day but this time it was because I felt if I passed out then that was it, no more me. I decided I didn't want to die for this project and started frantically looking for answers from people on forums and in videos on YouTube but alas I finally looked at what I was doing and decided that working on this project was just painful in various ways.

So I had to ask if it was really worth the pain, I finally decided that it wasn't. So, thank you for the understanding but yes I need to go take care of myself. Thank you, sorry if I bothered anyone with that one but I felt some context was needed.

lydsville:
Givne how much this problem has been stressing me out and somethings that happened to me recent that I didn't go into here I decided to ask for help on mental health and someone has pointed out what might actually be my issue, I'm a perfectionist (I knew this but thought, whatever there are Hollywood directors that are perfectionists who cna somehow pump out movies easily and be okay, so I shouldn't have any problems right...)

So my problem is exactly that, I don't ever want to just make something, I want to make the best thing I can possible make at the time and then the next time go even further and even better. Alas, this might be what could kill me in the end as I have put my body on the line for this more than once.

I've refused to let myself out of my room to eat anything until I get something done with the project, refused to let myself sleep until I get something done, both enough until the point where I feel myself about to pass out or even after I already have, [placed myself into situation which I knew would negatively affect me and still did it because in my won words "the project is worth more than me."

So now I honestly have to ask a question that I've been avoiding, I want to make a fetish game unlike all the others I've seen that would have an enriching story and beautiful graphics, something that is actually fun while at the same time is a full gameplay experience and not just easy fap material, but maybe I'm not the one who can do it.

The problem is that I feel if I get it wrong on the first go then we can't go back and do it again, we'd need to go through all of this again, we'd need a new idea to not be called out for using the same one again and then we'd have to go through all the struggles of the first project just to possibly meet the same result and given the first result was failure then I'll take that in the wrong way to mean no one is interested in this project at all and therefore there is no point in trying again.

So should I perhaps cancel this project and try to do something to escape worrying about perfection in something like this somehow, or should I keep going but figure out someway to escape these pitfalls?

I don't know how to escape these pitfalls and I don't know where to ask. I feel like I'm bringing others down in this pit of hell with me by asking too and I'd rather not. That said, I don't want to just cancel the project but what choice have I, if I can't do it then I just can't do it so what's the point in trying?

I'm sorry, I just don't know what to do. (I hope I didn't bog anyone down with this post, sorry)

canuck:
not sure if this belongs in the same thread, but i thought i would post it here since it is basically an update to the story i've already told here...

it's been four months since i moved & split with my girlfriend... and in that time i hit 300 lbs. officially double my original weight.

out of desperation to socialize in some way, i reconnected with an old ex-boyfriend of mine. we were together about six years ago, not for long, maybe 4-6 months? we were gym buddies, both fit at that time. i told him i had put on a bunch of weight. eventually i invited him over for dinner.

he was pretty shocked when he saw me - clearly what he had seen on our calls did not give him a good indication of my actual fattness, lol. he looked exactly the same - maybe leaner.

we had drinks, caught up. he offered to help me work off the weight at his home gym, but i declined and told him i wasn't interested in the gym anymore. dinner arrived, indian food with lots of naan (my favorite). i got quite a bit of selection because i didn't know what he would like. he ate hardly anything, mostly protein, in stark contrast to my orgy of gobbling! he didn't touch the naan, big flatbread twice the size of a dinner plate... i used them to soak up the sauces.

he said, "well i can see how you got so fat," lol! and about the "mmmm" sounds i made while eating, he said "it sounds like you are making love" which probably made me blush.

after dinner we had more drinks and opened up more. we have both had tough times during the pandemic, and it was nice for us both to share i think.

i asked to see his stomach - he had visible abs so he was in even better shape than when we were together before. to reciprocate, i took off my shirt and showed him my "one giant ab" lol. he felt how soft it was, and even reached underneath to heft it and feel how heavy it was.

it was actually a really wonderful experience. we got together one more time after that, and it was nice to be physical with someone (i'll spare you the details!). he clearly isn't a fat admirer so we probably won't hook up again, which is fine (he is an ex for a reason after all) but honestly, it was nice just to have that experience. especially knowing that it could be a long time before i get to experience something like that again.

just typing this has made me hungry... time for something to eat!

Dearynight98:
Can i read?

cmffa:
I mean it’s currently only a couple scenes in written on 25+ front n back notebook paper.