lydsville:
Givne how much this problem has been stressing me out and somethings that happened to me recent that I didn't go into here I decided to ask for help on mental health and someone has pointed out what might actually be my issue, I'm a perfectionist (I knew this but thought, whatever there are Hollywood directors that are perfectionists who cna somehow pump out movies easily and be okay, so I shouldn't have any problems right...)

So my problem is exactly that, I don't ever want to just make something, I want to make the best thing I can possible make at the time and then the next time go even further and even better. Alas, this might be what could kill me in the end as I have put my body on the line for this more than once.

I've refused to let myself out of my room to eat anything until I get something done with the project, refused to let myself sleep until I get something done, both enough until the point where I feel myself about to pass out or even after I already have, [placed myself into situation which I knew would negatively affect me and still did it because in my won words "the project is worth more than me."

So now I honestly have to ask a question that I've been avoiding, I want to make a fetish game unlike all the others I've seen that would have an enriching story and beautiful graphics, something that is actually fun while at the same time is a full gameplay experience and not just easy fap material, but maybe I'm not the one who can do it.

The problem is that I feel if I get it wrong on the first go then we can't go back and do it again, we'd need to go through all of this again, we'd need a new idea to not be called out for using the same one again and then we'd have to go through all the struggles of the first project just to possibly meet the same result and given the first result was failure then I'll take that in the wrong way to mean no one is interested in this project at all and therefore there is no point in trying again.

So should I perhaps cancel this project and try to do something to escape worrying about perfection in something like this somehow, or should I keep going but figure out someway to escape these pitfalls?

I don't know how to escape these pitfalls and I don't know where to ask. I feel like I'm bringing others down in this pit of hell with me by asking too and I'd rather not. That said, I don't want to just cancel the project but what choice have I, if I can't do it then I just can't do it so what's the point in trying?

I'm sorry, I just don't know what to do. (I hope I didn't bog anyone down with this post, sorry)

canuck:
not sure if this belongs in the same thread, but i thought i would post it here since it is basically an update to the story i've already told here...

it's been four months since i moved & split with my girlfriend... and in that time i hit 300 lbs. officially double my original weight.

out of desperation to socialize in some way, i reconnected with an old ex-boyfriend of mine. we were together about six years ago, not for long, maybe 4-6 months? we were gym buddies, both fit at that time. i told him i had put on a bunch of weight. eventually i invited him over for dinner.

he was pretty shocked when he saw me - clearly what he had seen on our calls did not give him a good indication of my actual fattness, lol. he looked exactly the same - maybe leaner.

we had drinks, caught up. he offered to help me work off the weight at his home gym, but i declined and told him i wasn't interested in the gym anymore. dinner arrived, indian food with lots of naan (my favorite). i got quite a bit of selection because i didn't know what he would like. he ate hardly anything, mostly protein, in stark contrast to my orgy of gobbling! he didn't touch the naan, big flatbread twice the size of a dinner plate... i used them to soak up the sauces.

he said, "well i can see how you got so fat," lol! and about the "mmmm" sounds i made while eating, he said "it sounds like you are making love" which probably made me blush.

after dinner we had more drinks and opened up more. we have both had tough times during the pandemic, and it was nice for us both to share i think.

i asked to see his stomach - he had visible abs so he was in even better shape than when we were together before. to reciprocate, i took off my shirt and showed him my "one giant ab" lol. he felt how soft it was, and even reached underneath to heft it and feel how heavy it was.

it was actually a really wonderful experience. we got together one more time after that, and it was nice to be physical with someone (i'll spare you the details!). he clearly isn't a fat admirer so we probably won't hook up again, which is fine (he is an ex for a reason after all) but honestly, it was nice just to have that experience. especially knowing that it could be a long time before i get to experience something like that again.

just typing this has made me hungry... time for something to eat!

Dearynight98:
Can i read?

cmffa:
I mean it’s currently only a couple scenes in written on 25+ front n back notebook paper.

Kate2409:
My main fantasy would be where I try to get my boyfriend to gain weight without him noticing, and it working but slowly. He would begin to notice said gain and try to “sabotage” me by giving me more food to eat, weight gain powder, etc, and I end up gaining way more than him. Then he’d end up humiliating me in public a lot by getting me too small clothes or ordering too much food for me to eat. I just love the idea of someone in control of me without me actually noticing until it was “too late.”

Startnew:
so my fetish is turning weirder. I get horny when I see a vid with pigs getting their bellies rubbed or sleeping. mind you, it's not like I want to have sex with animals, but... I also get horny after a good meal

fanedfox:
I haven't tried to navigate the story section of FF. I have been a member for several years and I have posted drawings, photos and stories. I recently closed down my Deviant Art account. I had over one hundred stories on my site. I don't remember how many I have posted here, but this will be where I will be posting previously un-posted stories (here) and new work. Please check out my profile.

redf0x:
not sure if this is you, but i think this is a story you had previously written

fantasyfeeder.com/stories/view

fanedfox:
This is not one of mine, thanks for asking though.

Lynne841:
Truth! I have been visiting this sight for stories for more than a decade and finally joined only now for all the supposed good stuff to be premium content.

Not only that they made the stories section harder to navigate. I miss the tabbed pages. I used to ve able to remember I was in the 30s or 40s or whatever and find stuff I've been reading. Now clicking 'More' 30 odd times and choose stories wisely because when your done reading the fucker brings you all the way back to the top. Start over looking for that other story that looked promising with less chapters. Things seem to randomly move around making doubly difficult.

I have been finding content elsewhere like Deviant Art, this new layout really sucks! Not only that I 100% agree its been hijacked by the premium stories and had the opposite effect. Frustrating and difficult!

Keeping in mind the stories themselves, the forums, profiles, pics, gainers, and all other sections still use the numbered tabs. Why change the stories section?


hiccupx:
The 'more' button is gone and the pager buttons are back! I could see it was making it difficult to navigate so hopefully this should make things easier.

Bbman30:
They need to make a drop down menu so we can filter between premium and non premium stories. Besides the quarantine causing people to lose money not everyone has extra capital to spend on a fetish website. It’s unreasonable for them to think everyone can afford it. Just because some have paid for premium doesn’t mean that those of us that haven’t have to be shown these stories that we can’t read.