Just not gaining because just not eating

I’m a stress non-eater. I’m just about 5’6”. I was 245 lbs just about 1 year ago, 54” belly. My goal was 260-270. Oh how I wanted my belly to hang over and ripple over my belt.

Then I lost my job (guess why), I wasn’t in the office to eat junk from the cafeteria and vending machines, and I moved. I did most of the moving and lost 35 lbs. I been stuck at 210-215 all this time. I’m happy to get to 225-230 at this point.

Money issues are a stress, so even though I’m not active I don’t have an appetite. I might eat once a day with a couple of cookies here or there. I really want to get back to eating more and gaining back some weight.

Sometimes I make Fatboy Shakes... whole milk, heavy cream, whole milk yogurt, ice cream, peanut butter, a banana, weight gainer powder. But often I just have no desire.

So, I’m at a loss currently.
5 years

How fat would you like to be?

I’m not sure if I ever answered in this thread. Maybe but a long time ago? Anyway my fantasy and goal has been 270, 280, 300 lbs, 56-57” belly, size 46-48 pants. I’m just about 5’6”. I’m about 210 now, so that’s 80-90 lbs. to gain. I’ve got a male couple for neighbors who have to be in excess of 300 lbs. Very sexy!
5 years

When did it hit that you're fat.

My gain was gradual and deliberate so it’s really hard to say, but I think I have to say when I passed 235 lbs. I had been up to 230 in the past (I lost it) but never thought of myself as fat, because it wasn’t a deliberate gain then. Also, after I started deliberately gaining I saw a couple of side view pictures of my gut protruding. I thought “yeah, I’m fat”, and liked it.
5 years

What made you wanna gain weight?

I don’t remember specifically but for the longest time I found fat guys very attractive. I always had a “weight problem” and seeing so many attractive fat guys I thought there couldn’t be anything wrong with it. So I started gaining and found I loved it. I’m just about 5’6” and got up to 245 lbs, size 44 pants, and 53” belly. I wanted to get to 260-270, size 46, and maybe get my belly to 54-55”. I unintentionally lost and am about 210, loose size 42s, and my belly about 45-46”. I was active and not eating much. I’m trying to gain it back but I need to eat more... a lot more. But yeah, I love being fat.
5 years

What made you fall in love with weight gain?

I always had a tendency towards weight gain and fought it. I don’t remember the specifics but I saw a fat guy I thought looked very good. I got seriously turned on by the thought of being fatter and thought to myself I’d love to get that fat. I decided to stop trying to lose/keep the weight off, and actively gain, and did. I went from about 200 to 245. My goal was 260-270. I’m just about 5’6”, so I was pretty fat, and loved it. I unintentionally lost about 35 lbs but I want to gain it back. I just love being fat, no idea why.
5 years

Unsure of whether to gain or not

It can take a while to be comfortable with gaining weight and being fat when you’re not turned on. The anxiety of what others think usually goes away. For me that was the biggest thing but I overcame that when I got to like seeing myself fatter and fatter. Then it’s not just a sexual fetish but really how you feel. I think we all waver. It’s 1 step forward, 2 steps back, 1 forward, 1 back, etc. It’s not always a straight line progression.
5 years

Over or under?

I like under the belly.
5 years

Should i feel bad

If you’re happy and in good health that’s all that matters.
6 years

Gainers and clothing

I prefer my clothes to fit comfortably but sometimes I like wearing tighter clothes. I like some pants that slide under my belly, and some shirts that are just a little snug to button. I like seeing the bit of blubber over my belt.
6 years