BigBallBellyGirl:
Agreed. Somewhere outside of the fantasy of endless, hard core gaining is a reality where most of us live. I consumed well over 22,000 calories Tuesday, and those into hard-core gaining would consider that "hot". So do I. I am turned on by the internal sensation of fullness, the swelling/bloating, and stepping on the scale to see the numbers climb. Realistically though, I know where doing that every day leads, because I did it for months at a time. I put on 200 pounds in 13 months. And there's not a world in which that could continue without completely losing independence and mobility. I don't want to get married in December from my bed or give up our honeymoon (which will already present special considerations). It doesn't mean I'm rebelling against this community by not wanting to blow up endlessly. It means that my "fat reality" is now how to keep the weight on but not get much bigger, how to stay active enough that I take some pressure off my knees and back, and what accommodations are necessary for an ambulatory supersized life. I can't talk about that with people outside this community, because honestly, I don't know any other 500 lb people in real life. My fiance has done his own research and built his own knowledge because we have a partnership, but he's 180 lb. This isn't his personal physical reality. And even though my doctor is not fat phobic or dismissive of symptoms, she will point to my size and eating habits as the causes of my blood pressure going up, shortness of breath, and knee issues, because, well, they are. I knew that when I was stuffing myself to oblivion, gaining 10 lb a week. So yes, I appreciate those who recognize maintaining is a part of the conversation, and a part of fat life, too!
Munchies:
Yeah, not a lot of people seem to get it - especially my fellow feeders and FAs. Weight management and weight loss are dirty words. And every moment of weekness is a chance to convince you to give up completely.
We gotta be better than that. And I'm glad people like you aren't afraid to post their truth.
Sincere thanks for the support. Also pointing out, if due to health, personal preference, or any other reason, a person who is obese now chose to lose... But they still enjoy this community (the pictures, the culture, the stories, the connections) they should feel no less welcome here. It is the interest that ties us together, not necessarily the physical attribute.
1 year
I remember reading somewhere the biggest belly ever measured was 120 inches, and I used to think I wanted to achieve that. Currently -- I'm around 93 inches standing, and I'm dealing with a good bit of back pain, because I carry a lot of visceral fat. I don't really think my body could handle a bigger belly. It's still fun to fantasize though about being 10 ft around!
1 year
I prefer veggie burgers, but of course beef patties would work too.
I love spicy food, but this recipe can certainly be toned down. I butter and lightly pan fry two pieces of Texas toast, versus a regular bun. On my patty, I add caramelized onion (which I sautee with butter in a different pan), two slices of pepper jack cheese, a scoop of guacamole (store bought from whole foods), a few dabs of Sriracha, and occasionally, fresh jalapenos. Sometimes, I substitute queso for the slices of cheese. It's messy but delicious. When I make these, I typically eat three or four.
1 year
Finish8000:
I can only imagine how much you love feeling your belly full to the brim.
I do! It's honestly one of my favorite sensations in the world. I'm going back to maintenance now, but I truly did enjoy achieving massive fullness again!
1 year
As someone over 500 lb, I would say, 'Keep your body moving'. I haven't always done that, and in some ways, I have paid for it. But I have also realized it's not too late, and I have recently started walking daily. I can only manage about a half mile at a time because of my knees, but I do it four times a day now. I haven't lost a pound, so don't worry about that... but my knees feel a thousand times better than when I was getting in maybe 500 steps a day total.
I would also add that a constant high fat, fried, cheesy diet will eventually wreak havoc on your digestive system. I know this because I've done it, sometimes for weeks at a time. I understand that in some spaces in this community, constipation and bloating are considered very hot, but I will say when you have issues for a whole week, you'll feel differently. Keep vegetables in your diet, as well as other sources of fiber. You'll thank me for it.
Finally, if you're planning significant gains, make accommodations in your wardrobe. Yes, putting on clothes you have outgrown can be a fun indicator your body is getting bigger, but honestly, if you're uncomfortable as you grow, you'll be less likely to continue. Keep those pants you're popping out of if you want, but also make sure you have clothing that don't hurt.
Good luck!
1 year
BigBallBellyGirl:
I've been planning to keep my weight in this general neighborhood, but I fell off the maintenance wagon hard last night at all you can eat sushi, and I have been eating ever since. Last night, I had 56 pieces with tempura vegetables and tempura shrimp. I woke up very bloated and also very hungry, and I have been eating since. It's so hard, when you were addicted to being overstuffed beyond your limits for a long time, to go back to regular meals. There was something so pleasurable about being packed like a drum, with my belly feeling bloated and sensitive, I haven't been able to stop myself. I've had around 14,000 calories so far today, and i know I'll gain some weight from this, but I'm going to give myself a day off from maintenance and get as stuffed as I want to. I've genuinely missed the feeling of physically ballooning outward from over indulgence. And tomorrow is another day!
Munchies:
The thing to remember is when you decide to maintain, you're not looking for perfection. You'll have days when you fall back into old habits.
And that's not the end of the world. It's completely unreasonable to expect anyone to do "all the right things".
You're right. Tomorrow is another day. Just because you had a period of time falling off the wagon doesn't mean you've doomed yourself from achieving what you want to achieve. Progress isn't a linear path. But so long as you're generally moving in the direction you want to go, you'll be fine.
We as a community glorify the gains. I think it's just as important to talk about the other aspects of the journey as well. Maintaining, weight loss, and changing body comp are also parts of the gaining experience. But since they aren't as sexy as getting fat, we don't talk about it.
And that's a shame. It's not like you can meet your needs in traditional weight management circles. They won't understand why someone wants to cap their gains at 500 or only drop from 400 to 250. I think that our community needs to engage with the practical side of things more. It's not as flashy as a never ending gain, but it's sexy in its own way.
Agreed. Somewhere outside of the fantasy of endless, hard core gaining is a reality where most of us live. I consumed well over 22,000 calories Tuesday, and those into hard-core gaining would consider that "hot". So do I. I am turned on by the internal sensation of fullness, the swelling/bloating, and stepping on the scale to see the numbers climb. Realistically though, I know where doing that every day leads, because I did it for months at a time. I put on 200 pounds in 13 months. And there's not a world in which that could continue without completely losing independence and mobility. I don't want to get married in December from my bed or give up our honeymoon (which will already present special considerations). It doesn't mean I'm rebelling against this community by not wanting to blow up endlessly. It means that my "fat reality" is now how to keep the weight on but not get much bigger, how to stay active enough that I take some pressure off my knees and back, and what accommodations are necessary for an ambulatory supersized life. I can't talk about that with people outside this community, because honestly, I don't know any other 500 lb people in real life. My fiance has done his own research and built his own knowledge because we have a partnership, but he's 180 lb. This isn't his personal physical reality. And even though my doctor is not fat phobic or dismissive of symptoms, she will point to my size and eating habits as the causes of my blood pressure going up, shortness of breath, and knee issues, because, well, they are. I knew that when I was stuffing myself to oblivion, gaining 10 lb a week. So yes, I appreciate those who recognize maintaining is a part of the conversation, and a part of fat life, too!
1 year
Morbidly A Beast:
I just think it’s pretty gross that there’s people fetishizing strangers irl when there’s people in this community who are actively gaining on purpose but whatever enjoy your nut I guess
You make a really good point, Morbidly, and there IS a difference in being a part of this community and wanting to be fetishized. This is part of the reason I don't post pictures. And for the life of me, I can't understand why a stranger would demand pictures from someone they have never met when there is a whole online universe packed with pictures of people with all body types and sizes.
1 year
Nah, I just needed to feel a full belly again!! It's a lovely feeling, and even diet soda bloats can't replicate it.
1 year
I've been planning to keep my weight in this general neighborhood, but I fell off the maintenance wagon hard last night at all you can eat sushi, and I have been eating ever since. Last night, I had 56 pieces with tempura vegetables and tempura shrimp. I woke up very bloated and also very hungry, and I have been eating continuously. It's so hard, when you were addicted to being overstuffed beyond your limits for a long time, to go back to regular meals. There was something so pleasurable about being packed like a drum, with my belly feeling bloated and sensitive, I haven't been able to stop myself. I've had around 14,000 calories so far today, and i know I'll gain some weight from this, but I'm going to give myself a day off from maintenance and get as stuffed as I want to. I've genuinely missed the feeling of physically ballooning outward from over indulgence. And tomorrow is another day!
1 year
I have had a lot of luck with biggerbras.com for size 8X and 9X underwear. Like anywhere else, super plus sizes will cost more, but the prices aren't obscene, and there is variety.
1 year
