For three weeks now I have needed help getting out of bed. The first time i was in shock. I've tied a rope to the bedframe and door to use to help me up and that worked for a while but now I cant do it by myself.
I never intended to be like this. trapped in so many ways. Most of the time is is embarrassing and degrading. I just don't understand how this also is exciting sometimes. I should be ashamed only
6 months
people sharing pics goes with the territory.
I just assume that if my guy takes pics of me that he is going to share them.... bragging? maybe? pride? ... could be
but if you dont want your pick shared then dont let someone take it.
or dont take it yoruself.
This isnt a popular view for a girl to take but... in this world if you dont protect yourself... no one else will.
6 months
Merry Christmas to all
Today i woke up early and barely needed assistance to get out of bed
Chris has a stuffing party planned for today.
I asked for it.
One last one. The last one. My present to me in a way. I love being pampered and played with and teased and fed.
he has 3 couples coming over in 4 hours and for 6 hours I will eat what every anyone hands me or puts in my lips.
This is the last one because of mobility.
The crazy side of my brain has enjoyed needing help to get out of bed in the morning and needing help to get out of the couch.
the practical part of me is horrified at what ive become and is afraid i will lose my ability to leave this house.
Waddling is hard to do but i can still get up the three steps and to the curb and back. The issues is getting up. I cant lift all of this alone
Anyway,
im allowing myself to completely enjoy today. to enjoy the food and touch and talk.
tomorrow i will begin anew and get back closer to 400.
i know this isnt a popular thing to say on this site but i do plan to lose enough to be more self sufficient and then maybe i can indulge in a feeding session like today in the future and not worry about being trapped.
Merry Christmas to all
Karen
6 months
Brownie mix
leave out the eggs
fold in a half cup of butter
add instead of a quarter cup of oil, add a whole cup of oil
add whole milk till you get the consistency that you want.
You can leave it like this and drink it or spoon it.
I like to add chocolate chips and walnuts to mine then freeze it. The extra oil keeps it from turning into a brick.
and if you remember to stir it really hard every 20 minutes it will be lighter too.
I've mixed it so thin that it flows throught a funnel and tube easily and mixed it so thick that it's like eating ice cream.
6 months
1. Been fed IRL
a LOT
2. Ate myself to sleep
Yes
3. Had sex while being fed at the same time
yes
4. Stolen food because I�m just a piggy
No
5. Been called a fat name in public
Pig - Cow - whale
6. Had a stranger pat or poke my belly
Yessss it was really weird.
7. Been fatter than my current weight
not really
8. Ripped clothes or popped a button
Yes - Thanksgiving
9. Broken furniture because of my weight
Yes- BUT they gave me a chair that was ready to break on purpose
10. Seen an actual pig and got turned on
No
11. Fantasized about immobility
Yes - too much. i'm afraid
12. Ate until I threw up
Yes
13. Got stuck somewhere because of my size
Yes. - Movie theatre... but it was on purpose
14. Posted nudes of myself online
noooooo
15. Been fed online
Yes
16. Been told I need to lose weight by a family member
Yes. mom makes me angry. there was a time i would stuff myself in front of her. just to piss her off
17. Had a partner who worshiped my fat
Yes
18. Started rubbing my belly in public
Yes- without thinking or realizing until people were staring
19. Been called a pig
Yes
20. Been weighed and measured by my partner
Yes
21. Been in a gaining competition with another gainer
Yes, breifly.
7 months
Fundingfeeder:
Ooo that’s an exhilarating scenario. Paid per taste?
in the rp...
i thought i would taste each persons dish and the rate it.
no.
i had to finish each persons plate of food to keep the workstudy or scholarship or whatever.
7 months
There are stories on thsi site like that.
I LOVE them.
Ive had soem really good RPs on here too.
my fav i think was when i needed college workstudy to pay ofr college
My work study was a taste tester for a baking class.
7 months
Karenjenk:
78.9
which means im 80% fat?
that just seems impossible
ILuvChubbyChix:
No. Body Mass Index, or BMI is a number that doesn't really hold much significance, other than a higher number means you're pretty much heavier.
While rare, a bodybuilder/hardcore gym rat/linebacker/etc. could have an "obese" BMI of 30+ but is probably more fit than most of us.
It doesn't take into account anything like muscle mass, body fat percentage, sex (women in general are always higher), age (tends to rise somewhat with age), bone structure (big boned is actually a thing, but won't explain 100 lbs of difference), or even pregnancy status.
Nevertheless, it's a fun number in the feederism community because surpassing various milestones means you have reached certain goals. 30+ is probably the point where most folks start to look a little heavy, that maybe they aren't exactly thin anymore.
yeah...
look a LITTLE heavy
ha ha ha
7 months
3 or 4 months ago or so i didnt have to rock to get up. I dont know when i started havign to rock or needing a hand but.
i remember the day that i realized i had been rocking or getting to the edge of the couch or chair and manicuring to get up instead of just standing up.
Thats my daily reminder for sure. another one is my lower stomach and how soft it is. when i walk i can feel it jiggle and rub agaisnt my thighs.
We did a saline inflation on it last weekend and i could have died.
7 months
There was a time when i LOVED being filled to the point it hurt to move.
it was like toying iwht immobility.
but then after a while being able to move.
i love feeling the weight of it all shift when i would roll to one side
7 months
