For me, I had to gain to know. I've hated my feedee side profusely, thinking it abominable. Gaining weight brought me such a sense of inner peace and even though I sometimes still wish I could lose it, I would never, ever want to be without the experience. It would have eaten me alive, no pun intended, if I hadn't indulged it. I've seen that here, too. Trying to fight it only makes it more extreme, in many cases.

That being said, it is a huge step and there will be consequences. Losing is hard and your experience isn't necessarily mine. There's also a very big difference in my mind between a chubby body (which I mostly felt bad about) and a fat body (which I really love). I would recommend experimenting, especially with fat women, and if you can find a therapist you can trust, work with them, too.

Best of luck out there.

People can get used to the weirdest things. Just give them a few months and it'll be like the new normal for them, hopefully.