Yes you do need a reality check Bonni. You call people disgusting old men whilst posting sexy pictures of yourself.
WTF Brandon, you're in Texas!! One of that fattest places on the planet. Tell them you love big cuddly women.
Here's what you do. When you see a SSBBW stop what you are doing and go over and say hello.
Hello Chubby, a clue, the SSBBW are the really really FAT women you see when you go out.
I thought the point of those places was to make you fat. Maybe they were worried you would waste it?
Oh, just don't worry about what you think they will think. What's important is they appeal to you.
Be friendly with girls you see and they will probably live not far away. They ought to feel delighted that you decided to talk to them.
The greatest thing about the Internet is also it's greatest failing. The people you meet are from all over the world.
If they don't like you then you had no chance anyway so don't worry about it ;-) Ask for their number or offer them yours.
Head straight for the fat ones and say something stupid but complimentary. If they like you they won't mind you being an idiot.
Chatting here is probably good for your ego but the best thing to do is talk to girls you see when out.