Chapter 1 - confession

There's a lot of people in this community some with autism some without autism I happen to be with autism. I have been obsessed with fat girls since I was a teenager and I never knew about the community about it until I was a young adult feederism and I don't even have any feeder or feedee experience and I never had sex. Let's face it I'm still a virgin and about to be an uncle and that's going to be a position for me for the rest of my life and I'm extremely shy. I'm still outgoing the only things I am more outgoing on is going out to see a movie I'm extremely excited for or buying a DVD, Blu-ray or 4K Ultra HD or buying a CD or buying an Xbox card so I could buy a movie on Xbox digitally. But when it comes to talking to girls I'm extremely shy and I have a weird way of showing it. I don't know if I want a feederism life or a normal life with someone. And I don't know any girl I would crush on. I do not know if I should get back with previous girl I crushed on although I never went out with them or try crushing on someone else I'm in a rut. I admit that. My God I never did this before but I'm coming out of my own closet and I would want support but in return I want everybody to donate to any organization for Down syndrome or retiration or autism because those are really special people. I have autism but I just don't want to show it. Until I figure out what I want I think I should keep my distance from a feederism until I am ready for it and not crush on any girl until I am ready. Maybe I should do what I normally do until I know what I want. This isn't a goodbye and this is not a goodnight neither. If anyone of you understand comment down below and if wish me the best of luck that will help. But I want you to take courage on this any feederism writer to tell a story of anyone who has autism and has feederism desire it doesn't matter if it's male or female. I wish everyone the best of luck and hopefully I will return more confident that I am. Peace and love. Be well.