Letting herself go!

chapter 2

Back at the fridge another trance like state came over her as she gazed at the limited options. He finger slid into her soft warm and slightly wet belly button and she gently moved it around. Finding nothing she wanted in the fridge Michelle opened the freezer and peered into the arctic chest in search of her edible victim. "oh I forgot I had these" Michelle said as she grabbed a box of chocolate skinny cow "ice cream" cones. Flipping the box over Michelle calculated the calories and fat and decided she could have half of a bar to say on track for her calorie needs for the day.

Ice cream in hand she shuffled back to the couch alone and started in on her "treat". It was so cold, sweet and rich that Michelle could hardly believe it was a diet ice cream. Half of the creamy treat was gone and Michelle knew she had to put it back in the freezer or throw it away. The woman voice on the phone from earlier today echoed in her head. Here she is alone, no man, eating like a P.O.W and all the fat cows at work and on the phone had men lusting after them with no avail. Fu#k this shit Michelle said and plunged the creamy treat into her mouth.

Somehow the ice cream bar tasted even better, maybe it was the taboo of knowing she was breaking her diet. It felt good to be naughty and break a rule in her mundane and routine life. Then in a blink of an eye the ice cream was gone. Ice cream was all over her lips and she licked it off greedily and lay back in her couch as she threw the stick on the floor. Her tummy felt full, for once, and Michelle smiled to herself as she watched the commercials for the amazing race. One came on for a weight loss shake featuring a slim Hollywood model. "take two pills a day and skip a meal and the pounds will melt off" said the boney model who was so anemic she barley had enough energy to smile for the camera. Laughing at the commercial Michelle tuned off the TV and headed to bed.
Another day at the office, the same old same old daily grind. The same hellos and good mornings and routine. Call after call selling happiness in a bogus weight loss pill until it was lunch time.

Michelle sat by herself and opened her packed lunch of an apple, Greek yogurt and weight loss health bar. The herd of hippos waddled in soon after Michelle started forcing the bland gruel she called food into her mouth. Stephanie looked corpulent as usual and her fat legs made her slightly waddle to her feeding table. As Stephanie sat down her *** cheeks spread out and popped out of the sides of the chair. This was in plain view of Michelle and she was in awe by how a women could let herself get so disgustingly large.
The herd was gossiping about housewives of new york when a middle aged deliver man knocked on the break-room and asked, " delivery for Mrs Stephanie Skiraga?". Barley able to turn abound the fat married housewife raised her blubbery angel wing and said over here and snapped her finger. The delivery man looked shocked by her laziness but walked over the huge bag of delicious smelling food and placed it in front of the hog wife. Stephanie tossed the tip at him and he left promptly not wanting to get in the way of a fat women and her meal.
The smells of rich cheesy pasta and garlic bread filled the small break room and Michelle practically was drooling on herself. The herd ate and talked with there mouths full of fattening foods and in pure jealously Michelle walked out and skipped lunch and headed back to her desk. Michelle thought to herself over and over what am I doing to myself? Why am I trying to be skinny, just because its what the media says is attractive? Why don't I have a man in my life and all the chubby and fat women I know do?
Breaking her thought process the receptionist, Kimmy asked, "wanna grab some food"? Michelle's reaction was a quick no. But then she said, "wait Kimmy, you know what, I could eat, lets go"! Kimmy and Michelle put on their coats and headed to Kimmy's car and drove to the local shopping center to see what "fast food" they wanted. Kimmy was portly and about 5'5 with dark black hair and a pale complexion and blue eyes. "We could go to SubPlay or maybe Green acres salad buffet" Kimmy said sheepishly. "No, were going there," Michelle said boldly and pointed to Burger Palace. Kimmy let out a squeal and stepped on the gas. They both walked in and stood a few feet back to take in the menu.
"You go first," kimmy said a little unsure of herself. "OK, no problem," Michelle said. The tall young man whose name tag read Nick said "hello Miss, what would you like today?"
"I want, I mean I would like a number three large, no, extra large with ummmm, a large chocolate shake."
"Coming right up," anything else he asked with a subtle grin on his face as if to dare her to order more.
"Yes, I also want, I mean I will have, a side order of two apple pies."