I killed my ankle near the beginning of covid.
Every time I went to the doctor I gained a little.
The nurse who weighed me raised an eyebrow when she wrote down my weight on the chart. I could tell why. I asked how much and she said 27.
She didn't tell me my weight. Just what I had gained.
I cried

I don't consider this MY fetish yet
But only my sister BFF and brother have caused this

Little Debbie Nutty Bars.
holy cow.
my BFF dropped off 4 boxes of them and finished one whole box this evening before she even left.
I could die for them.
put them in the freezer... even better

I think its important to have limits... boundaries.
you can alwasy change them as you go along

my original goal was to gain only 20
funny how gaining 20 back then seemed like a lot.
maybe think of limits as goals and then see how you feel? and go from there?

Lard consistancy. think along the lines of crisco. but thicker.
If you mix it with sugar and vanilla its almost like cake icing
and i cant believe i told you this.

but... i was craving something sweet one night and didnt want to leave my place because its cold. and... yeh. easy to make

I fought this gaining for over a year. I'm on a lose phase now but there is no time so i know i'll give up again.

the people on here all say gain or to come to terms with it or ride it out

people in my life in person are all encouraging me to gain. and just go with it.
prolly because my sister is huge.

when Im on a 'go with it phase' im like a vacuum.

when im on that manic phase i like the challenge of the eating games we play.
oh well
for now... salad and lemon water for lunch.... thats a lie.
i have cold pizza from yesterday and will prolly take that. and any of the doughnuts that no one eats from the break room
FML

43 pounds?
my skin is finally not so tight.
Sometimes it hurt after a filling session.
especialy my stomach.
i can tell its like lower too.

practice

I didnt actually decide to gain weight.
Right at the beginning of covid i got injured really bad.
Ended up in bed and then the couch and couldnt move.
Trust me.... immobility might sound kind of erotic. It's not.
Maybe under different circumstances...

I've packed it on. even if i lost all the wait and gained back all the muscle l lost i wont ever be able to do the things i used to because of my ankle.
3 screws and a rod.
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Honestly i feel like along with getting fat i got dumber. I know people RP about things like that but really. Netflix and junk now for what??? 18 months?
Maybe i I just got dumber and dumber i would get to a point where i didnt care.
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I'm trying to just give in. It's not so bad.
I mean... it could be. but for now.. its just... inconvenient.
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Ive written about some of my fat fantasies on here and it's really not like anything i thought it would be.

I actually had a relatinoship like this that lasted for almost 2 years.
the main thing i liked was not having to think about anything.
lost all the weight. but enjoyed every bite. and now... gaining it back and more