I’m just about 5’6”. My goal was 250-260+. I got to 245 but unintentionally lost about 30 lbs from increased activity. I’d like to gain back about 15-20 lbs, to about 230-235 to make my 40s and 42s slightly snug, and to fill out my shirts to show off my belly. At that point I’ll probably maintain.

I was in the hospital almost two years ago for what they thought was congestive heart failure. I passed the stress test, EKG, ECG, and blood work with flying colors. The cardiologists were scratching their heads. It wasn’t CHF, it was probably my thyroid which went berserk again.

When I followed up with my primary care physician I was sitting in the examination room. The doors to each room, which face each other in an octagon shape, were open. He says very loudly “you need a bypass”. I asked why since my heart was fine. He said a gastric bypass. I was mortified because I didn’t know just who heard it besides his nurse and interns. I was also stunned and didn’t know what to say. By the time I got home I was furious. At my next visit I ripped him a new one. He apologized profusely and said he wouldn’t do that intentionally.

I think “too fat” for me would be trouble walking, breathing, cleaning myself, blood work being negatively affected, i.e. blood sugar and lipids going up, liver and kidney functions degrading, etc. I did have a problem with cleaning myself after dropping a deuce. At home I would just get in the shower and use the handheld shower head. I dreaded having to go at work or somewhere else. Conversely, though I have a fantasy goal and image “fat enough” is 260-270 lbs, 46 waist pants. I’m 5’6”, so that’s pretty hefty, yet I think I could till function.

This kink or fetish is almost an addiction. I have liked fat guys for a long time. I saw pictures of guys, and guys in real life that at the time I thought were really obese. I still found them attractive, I didn’t judge. It was just a matter of perspective and frame of reference. As time went on and I was gaining those guys seemed to be not so obese anymore. As I gained and hit milestones, weights I had never reached before, I thought “that’s all I am?” and pushed to gain more. I didn’t hit my goal, and actually lost unintentionally. I’m gaining again but it’s not enough weight fast enough. In short, we raise the bar. I think something hormonal or in our brain chemistry happens that we don’t think we’re fat enough.

This is it. In the beginning I got very turned on as I was gaining, but after orgasming I lost the desire and disliked myself for letting myself go. Other times I said to myself this (getting fat) isn’t me. I realized it was only because other fat guys turned me on, I wanted to be like them.

But as time went by and I got used to being fatter, didn’t get ridiculed, found I could buy larger size clothes I thought hey this isn’t so bad.

So I guess it was both... I love fat guys, and I actually got to like being fat, and liking how I look. In my case it just took time.

I’m just about 5’6”, currently 215-216 lbs give or take, my belly is about 46”. So my fantasy goal, and I say fantasy because I don’t think I can reach it, is to get to 260-270 lbs, 56-57” belly, 46-48 waist pants. I’ve even wondered if I could ever get to 300 lbs.

think about sitting in a restaurant, or anywhere with my blubbery belly and love handles spreading and overhanging my belt. I think about how my belly would ripple as I walk. I’ve found pics on the internet of guys, and seen some in real life I would love to look like. But I do have a limit and think of guys I saw that I don’t want to look like.

This was at least 15 years ago... I was a member of a weightlifting forum and made a post “I wanna get fat”. I remember saying I was tired of dieting and busting my ass to lose weight. I said I wanted to eat anything and everything and actually become obese. I don’t think it was just frustration, but rather a real desire to get fat. I saw so many good looking fat guys... how bad can it be for so many good looking guys to be so fat? It was a turn on. I toyed with the idea on and off for years, but I found myself getting turned on by it and fantasizing about it and fat guys when I masturbated. Of course, afterwards I lost the desire to get fat until I started getting turned on again. So around May 2015 I gave in, let go and started gaining. I found this site and joined for the first time (I quit, then came back a few times), and found the Gainer’s Pledge. So yeah, around 2005-2006 is when I had my first inkling of wanting to get fat.

I don’t know if my husband suspects. I make comments that I got tired of worrying about getting fat, or if I do so what, that’s why they make bigger size clothes, I joke about my belly and call myself Fatboy, and things like that, but I never came right out and said it.

I’m going to say round belly with a nice layer of soft blubber. Mine tends towards round and hard.

I also tighten my belt and let it slide under my belly to show it off. I consciously fight the urge to hold it in, letting it protrude. Whether people notice, because so many people are overweight, and I’m just another fat guy, I don’t know. But I do like to draw attention to my belly. In the shower I cradle it with one hand and let it hang out while I ... y’know, which makes it all the more erotic. At night in bed, lying on my side I sort of cradle it.