MarshmallowMinotaur:
I�m feeling the same way. I�m always raising the bar. I want to get a lot fatter too. When I was 200 I thought 225 was the goal. When I was 220 I thought 230-235 would be good. Now I�m almost 235 and I wonder if 245 will be all that fat.[/quote]

I'd initially had not exactly a goal weight, but I had a weight I wasn't afraid to imagine being, which was 265. I got from there to over 305 because, "I just want to see how another 10lbs. looks", and the way my gaining goes it's a cycle wherein I will always *eventually* wind up with a want/need/desperate panic to grow enough to notice it. It's still happening even now because I for awhile I unintentionally/circumstantially lost 2.5 stone, and all last year I got to enjoy putting it back on, which was also my first natural chance to lose and regain weight, and see if my fat distribution and density relaxed like I'd hoped it would. And you know what? It sure as hell did!

So is it addicting, or is it that it's always been a good experience for me? Every successful gain I've grown a bit fatter, and happier with where my body is and where I suspect may be going, and *crucially* I'm not stressed about it because I've always taken as much time as I need whenever I feel like I need it, and I've spent my time as a gainer really learning to listen to myself (because myself can be a vague, wordless mess).

But "I just want to see how another 10lbs. looks", is undoubtedly where I'll find myself again. This time I'd venture to guess that it'll show up once I crest 330 and start to adjust to being that size... I don't know if my fetishistic levels of desire will ever clash with what the rest of me thinks and wants, but I hung out around 300 for a couple of years because the first time I was 300+ I had so much perky abdominal fat with nowhere to go but sit and fight against my boobs and my chest/lungs/diaphragm for air. It wasn't terrible, but it felt like being a little bit claustrophobic
in yourself, if that makes any sense.

Final insight I've got is that getting fatter is definitely just like taking a drug, and makes sense to me because what drugs do is make your brain release more or less of neurotransmitters and chemicals your body had already made itself.
I don't think you can abuse your brain chemistry via sexy thoughts quite as well as you can with cocaine, but I could see if being like a masturbation/sex addiction.
Personally, when I feel like I've got something unpleasant or overwhelming to tackle or get through, feedism is one of my preferred way to build in some "me time", and focusing on my body as much as I do when I'm in the midst of legitimately stressful times, has proven to be... I'm not Californian enough anymore to call it a grounding experience, but it's always a place I can choose to go for a smile and a surprisingly rewarding self-hug!

I'll add my voice to the testimonial chorus (if you have a search in the forums for heavy cream you'll find it's a full choir) - heavy cream/double cream, which I mix about 50/50 with chocolate milk, has made a huge difference in my gaining over the years.
That being said, it only really works its magic when I average at least half a pint/500ml for several days straight. Frankly, it's an exhausting experience that I haven't always been able to keep up with. However, if you've got the time to zone yourself out with fattening up, it's an experience I would highly recommend.

ProTip: Mix 1 pint of whipping cream (or single/double cream mix) to a box of plain chocolate brownie mix. Add milk until you get it to get a reasonably drinkable consistency. Voila! 10,000 calorie shake to consume throughout the day That'd be one hell of a holiday, amiright?! Lol

Best of luck and happy fattening!

I totally lol'd at the drinking caveat, but I don't think I was really clear to begin with! What I meant was that if she says she wants to gain and likes you encouraging her, then believe it! It just may not look like she wants it all the time only because it's hard to be in feedee mode all the time. For me personally, the best thing my fella can do is offer me more/give my belly a rub and a jiggle, and if I'm able to "stomach it" I happily will! I can't speak for your partner, but I'm also in a place where I've gained 80-100 lbs and am having a hard time getting past 300, and don't have the time or resources to go all out like I did at first. Sometimes your body and your life just don't cooperate the way you'd like, but I'd still like to gain even if I'm not stuffing every day. It sounds like you two have really good communication around this, and that will do more for you both I over time than anything else

I'm going to suggest you listen to what she says rather than whether or not she's acting as you think a feedee/gainer "should". Appetites change, being stuffed constantly is exhausting, and weight gain can slow down and plateau, especially after a significant gain. Also, getting really stuffed at 5pm personally would leave me without an appetite until I've had a chance to sleep it off with at least a nap.

Making sure plenty of her favourite foods are available and supportively checking in with her wishes is the way I'd go. But the sometimes unfortunate reality of being in a long term feedist relationship is that life will often take precedence over fantasy, and adjusting your expectations from fantasy to the reality and long haul might be a better and more rewarding frame of mind for you to adopt. Best of luck!

This really stuck out to me because I can understand why you'd wonder that, but as someone who also had childhood versions of feedist experiences, I can at least share my insight on this.

I didn't identify my feelings as being an actual fetish until I was almost 20, and then it intensified the scope of my sexual fantasies, which had always been about growing bellies and fattening up. It freaked me out, but over the years I had no choice but to engage with it because this is what gets me off.

At 29 I decided to gain weight and find a relationship with a man who was compatible with my fetish, and at this point I'm 100% happy with it on all fronts. But in the interim I had a series of awkward fantasies based on things from my childhood. Those were replaced as I had real life experiences or found new fantasies inspired by stories and people documenting weight gain in pictures. What I'm saying is: just because something that arouses you includes a sibling in childhood does not mean you are sexualising a child - it is completely possible to view a sexual memory from a childhood perspective, and it doesn't sound like the experience was sexualised on her end. Just because you experienced it that way does not mean that she did, as a fetish is by definition the sexualisation of something that is not sexual in origin. (I'll leave the philosophical side of that debate for others, though!)

My advice is to keep thinking and feeling your way through it, and as you become better acquainted with yourself and whatever it is you find yourself desiring, I think you'll find that these fantasies will become a distant memory as you develop a more enjoyable selection from your wank bank Best of luck!

Lol, I can only have a half of one each day, and I tend to skip a couple days in between because it's a bit intense, and I'm lazy about going to the shop 😜

I don't see myself gaining as quickly as I have in the past, when I'd have one a day for several days in a row, but I'm more patient now and don't really have the desire to deal with the grogginess consuming all of those calories results in for me. However, my hunger and capacity have gone up noticeably- you're not alone in that!

This thread had the same effect on me! Lol, mine is an old favourite, and can get up to 5,000 a pop, although I can't remember if I added peanut butter and ice cream to those... I can't remember the US equivalent either (moved to the UK, and have the memory of a goldfish), but it's 300ml double cream, 150ml single cream, 1/2 a box of Betty Crocker fudge brownie mix, and enough 2% milk to make it easily drinkable. The shock to my system is already underway - no quantifiables yet except for a couple pounds up, but within my normal range. I feel puffy af though! How's it going for you?

I have mixed feelings about Feabie... I met my boyfriend on there, and he's literally the greatest thing since cheesecake was invented 😍 However, our first messages were sent on here. Because of the social network nature of Feabie, people tend to have more info about themselves available, be it on their profiles or by their engagement on the site. It isn't a fetish oriented as FF (because it's been promoted as a BBW/BHM and FA dating site on the App Stores), so people tend to participate more. Because of that he was able to stand out as someone worth having a chat with, and the rest is history

BUT THE DRAMA!! OMG! I cannot stand the amount of bitching and bad attitudes on that site. It's the no. 1 thing that keeps me away, although I can't recommend using the site-wide filter hard enough if anyone wants to make it work better for them. I'm not sure, but I think there might be an option to exclude professional profiles..?

I found that Feabie was what I made of it - using it as a dating site only really worked out for me! Everything else I've tried getting into on there has cost me a bit of my faith in humanity every time... 😓

Since joining as an active member in Nov. 2013 (after years of lurking, lol), I've gone from 187 to 306, so just shy of 120 lbs. To be fair, my typical adult weight prior to gaining intentionally was about 220, and I'd be lying if I said I don't often find myself thinking about how much I'd enjoy surpassing the real 100 lb mark! But for now I'm sort of just going with the flow... at least until the desire does what it always does and has me asking my boyfriend to help me gain a stone or two We'll see how long I can resist!

I had a very perky and firm belly for the longest time, and it was only once I got into the upper 280's that it began to soften and fall. It seems to have taken some time for the last 15 lbs to settle and for my skin to stretch around the new fat, but now I'm 305-310 and my belly has drooped into a consistently undeniable hang.

This post inspired me to put up some pictures showing it off, since this was a major hope/goal when I decided to start gaining!! It's taken 50 lbs more than I expected to achieve it, but I'm happy to report it's everything I hoped it would be lol