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Spike
5 years
I am now thinking of how I would probably be a better dom than the submissive role people bully me and force me into. Not just in real life (It happens a lot, i assume to shut me down so i am quiet and malleable) but it is even online thus why my fanbase is toxic. It started on snap and even if i post here on reddit mods of gone wild threads remind me no "Fat" girls or are just rude in general in some subreddits. I had a whole two threads bully me yesterday until I deleted my two photos.
I am an asexual virgin, that is like GOLD for Chasity. Who else wouldn't give a shit about someones endless excuses? Who else besides a sex repulsed individual for an "ignoring fetish" or being condescending to people who get off on humiliation? But instead i got to deal with the people who tell me horrible things til i puke and demand horrendous things from me (It is why my onlyfans is FREE. I even have proof of it on there and if you go through all my posts i have one trying to set boundaries. I ended up in the hospital from trying to do a request they demanded. )
But HOLY FUCKING SHIT Why has no one mentioned this in the YEAR I have been trying to do sex work or any sort of sexual photos or roles and all it took was ONE man to say "humiliate me, tell me what you want me to do" for this to click in my MIND that I think, especially if my real life sucks, that a position of power would be not only better for my mental health but that I may vibe better with certain fetishes?
It just makes me sad to realize just how toxic my fanbase truely, authentically, really is to the core.
Just needed to say it SOMEWHERE as maybe someone has advice for how to turn it or create a new fanbase.
I am an asexual virgin, that is like GOLD for Chasity. Who else wouldn't give a shit about someones endless excuses? Who else besides a sex repulsed individual for an "ignoring fetish" or being condescending to people who get off on humiliation? But instead i got to deal with the people who tell me horrible things til i puke and demand horrendous things from me (It is why my onlyfans is FREE. I even have proof of it on there and if you go through all my posts i have one trying to set boundaries. I ended up in the hospital from trying to do a request they demanded. )
But HOLY FUCKING SHIT Why has no one mentioned this in the YEAR I have been trying to do sex work or any sort of sexual photos or roles and all it took was ONE man to say "humiliate me, tell me what you want me to do" for this to click in my MIND that I think, especially if my real life sucks, that a position of power would be not only better for my mental health but that I may vibe better with certain fetishes?
It just makes me sad to realize just how toxic my fanbase truely, authentically, really is to the core.
Just needed to say it SOMEWHERE as maybe someone has advice for how to turn it or create a new fanbase.
Sweettoothsw...
5 years
I’m so sorry you went through this! I’m a switch so I genuinely enjoy both domming and subbing usually (in my personal life and SW), but I’ve definitely experienced a lot more toxicity coming from people who want me to submissive 😕 some are great, but when people ARE toxic, it tends to be in that direction. I know you posted this a couple weeks ago so I dunno how you’re feeling now? But it sounds like domming could be a much healthier route. My best friend is nonbinary & asexual & does a lot of findom stuff and finds it a lot healthier than the requests for subby stuff. Even if some of your old fans aren’t into the new direction, you’ll attract new fans who are, and there will be fans who don’t care what you do because they just enjoy you as a content creator. I’m rambling but anyway I hope you find yourself on a much happier road soon, it’s okay to explore!! 💗💗
Spike
5 years
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so, bbw-chan is basically the same type of cesspool than 4chan & all of those other devious doma
Never heard of it before, a lot of leaks :X
so, bbw-chan is basically the same type of cesspool than 4chan & all of those other devious doma
Never heard of it before, a lot of leaks :X
Spike
5 years
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anyone else dreamt of being kidnapped and fattened to death since they were young?
Hello,
As someone who was once held hostage i want to make a note that this is NOT sexy, not a fantasy.
The person or people who are in charge of your care tend to be mentally and physically ...
anyone else dreamt of being kidnapped and fattened to death since they were young?
Hello,
As someone who was once held hostage i want to make a note that this is NOT sexy, not a fantasy.
The person or people who are in charge of your care tend to be mentally and physically ...
Spike
5 years
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theory: how did we end up in feedism?
I was starved when I was younger and fed a lot of poisons from a schizophrenic mom so now i learned i like food and the taste of food.
theory: how did we end up in feedism?
I was starved when I was younger and fed a lot of poisons from a schizophrenic mom so now i learned i like food and the taste of food.
Spike
5 years
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fit to fat to fit new on youtube!
Honestly that sounds like it can be a positive experience. Does it humble the trainers and teach them that losing weight isn't easy when the stamina isn't there. At least i hope its not a negat...
fit to fat to fit new on youtube!
Honestly that sounds like it can be a positive experience. Does it humble the trainers and teach them that losing weight isn't easy when the stamina isn't there. At least i hope its not a negat...
Spike
5 years
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songs about fatties
And this one song by Cupcakke with the lyrics "I rather be eating Burger King than Broccoli" but I forgot the song XD
songs about fatties
And this one song by Cupcakke with the lyrics "I rather be eating Burger King than Broccoli" but I forgot the song XD
Spike
5 years
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songs about fatties
Big Girl (You Are Beautiful) by Mika.
Hard Out Here by Lilly Allen
I think that is it for now that I can think of not mentioned.
songs about fatties
Big Girl (You Are Beautiful) by Mika.
Hard Out Here by Lilly Allen
I think that is it for now that I can think of not mentioned.
Spike
5 years
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how did you balance feederism in a relationship while keeping everyone healthy at the same time?
I think fat bodies are stigmatized and seen as "unhealthy" when there are so many variables such as genetics, health issues, medications, and overall just how fat is stored.
Fat does not equal ...
how did you balance feederism in a relationship while keeping everyone healthy at the same time?
I think fat bodies are stigmatized and seen as "unhealthy" when there are so many variables such as genetics, health issues, medications, and overall just how fat is stored.
Fat does not equal ...
Spike
5 years
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sucking your stomach in
I suck mine in obsessively but usually most people I hear do not as for me it comes from insecurity of being fat.
I also wear spanx a lot to a point it cuts into my skin to appear thinner :X BU...
sucking your stomach in
I suck mine in obsessively but usually most people I hear do not as for me it comes from insecurity of being fat.
I also wear spanx a lot to a point it cuts into my skin to appear thinner :X BU...
