Chapter 15 - my man ~ chapter 15

I don't remember much about it. I' m not sure witch happend or what I thought that happend. I can't make difference between them. I only know that I got in to hospital. I have no idea, where is he, or how I got here. Are those girls who were there, safe now? Am I safe? Is this just dream? Nowadays people come talk to me about what he did, how I found that place, and what happend. It'should kind of embrassing to talk about some things, and hard to answer another ones. But I fid it, I tried to answers to most of those questions. I felt bored in that bed, I am not even allowed to walk out of here, before they find some place to me to keep normal life. I don't know what is normal anymore, my time with him was so extremely weird. I'm thankfull for their help, but worried about him. I guess I still have feelings for him, and I hate myself for that. But hating don't make feelings dissappear. It just make me feel even worse, when I should just try to forget.
Days went, and they helped me to get own apartment. I needed to find job, if I wanted to survive. So I did it. It was not easy, many don't want hire pregnant woman. But I was lucky when I found that cafe. It was savior of my life, but also my little daughter's, when she finally born.
My pregnancy went well after all, and she was titally okay. She was so beautiful already! I loved her forest green eyes, until they remembered me of him. I gave her the words most sweet name, as my little princess should have, Nelia.
I got divorsed from him, but I knew I can't move on in my life before one thing, i needed to say finally goodbye to him. One day I will be ready to go to jail to do it, not yet. But I knew, that Nelia will not ever meet her father, no matter what. One day she will be old enought, that I can tell her hole story, and when that day come, she will be old enought to understand and support me with this decission. I'm sure about it.
Years went, I lived happily with Nelia. I didn't keep studying to lawyer, I found that it was not most important thing in world. I realized, that I wasnt supposted to be fattened up, or lawyer. I was supposted to be mom of this child. I lost few pounds, but I didn't care about my weight so far. I wanted to give example of best and most healthiest way of living to Nelia. I wanted her to have happy and healthy life. I wanted to show that weight don't matter most in the life. It is people that matter, and how you threat them. Not the way you look, or what you eat. As long as you are happy.