Chapter 2

Supermarket, of course that is where I would pull in. "Yes, yes! this is where you need to be. Lets go in, lets get our tools!" The voice was not mine. It never was. It was another one I could not describe it though. And oddly. I wanted to listen to it. It's desires were my own. Maybe it was time to let my secret go. Maybe it was time to let ti all go. Tonight would be perfect for this. I got out of the car and walked into the place, maybe pushed is the better term, who knows anymore. I was directed to the snack aisle at once. It was as if I was on some kind of remote control, but of course I wanted to go here, I've wanted to go here my whole life. I was filled with excitement that I can not describe.

I was not without a time limit. I told her I'd be there soon, this would not take long though. Long have I dreamed of this moment, long have I wished for it to actually happen and thought of all the things I would obtain for this. Yes, this was a dream come true. I suppose I was too excited. My mind was playing tricks on me and I was sure not to give in to temptation just yet. I have been to this point before, but never with such a determination as I had now. I gathered my supplies, the tools of my trade.

The price was high, I had bought forty five dollars worth of various snacks, the cashier gave me a funny look, as if he never expected to eat all this. I just explained it away as a party. I did feel a bit nervous, as if I was being watched or something. I don't know why I should have cared what some random person thought all this stuff was for, but I did, and I had to explain it away. "Oh, I know you feel guilty about your secrets, who wouldn't a beautiful girl like you, ruining the bodies of others for your own pleasure. I have to say though. I like your style, wait. I AM your style." The inner voice seemed to taunt me, accuse me of being scared of the thing I've wanted for so long. "No, not guilty, I just don't want to over extend my hope, that's all." I had stop questioning the inner voice by now. It was a part of me after all. I returned to my car with a cart full of questionable material, or, junk food.

Every feeder knows that, while sugar and carbs like this work well for gaining weight, they did very little for the health of your feedee, and believe it or not, very few of us out there actually cared about their health. The majority of feeders, never give a damn about anyone but themselves! I refused to be part of the group that made us all look so bad! According to Hollywood, we were all horror movie material. The movie Feed comes to mind. While the story was interesting, it was the ending that angered me, most people hated it, but their hate of the movie, and attempts to "Correct It" only exposed their true natures to the world. Our community is usually one shrouded in secrecy and shadows. You might call us the ninja of the fetish world sometimes.

I got into my car, it was time to begin tonight, I must have spent more time in there than I had intended, the sun was already beginning to set and I had to get a move on, there was no objection from the inner voice, no encouragement to move forward either though. It was only ten minutes later I pulled up to Mel's house. She was already renting her own place, her parents were not exactly the nicest people and she was desperate to escape, she did and made it on her own quite nicely, she worked hard, but not hard enough to destroy that magnificent body of hers, that was partly my fault though.

I grabbed the bags, for as much as I had it turned out to be pretty light and easy to carry, it was then if I wondered if I had enough! I was doubting myself already, this wasn't good start to the night. Mel opened the door for me. Her black hair covered one of blue eyes, she brushed it aside though. Her body was wonderful, as always. "So, whats with all the food, "she asked me in that familiar voice of hers. "Well, I thought we could use some snack material and I kinda went overboard. I just couldn't decide what to get, so I splurged and got it all!" That was mostly true. I really couldn't decide what to get. "Well, come inside then," I followed her into the house.

Setting the stuff on the table. I wanted to scream then and there my intentions, yes i wanted to as I am sure most of us usually do, I resisted. "So, what should we do tonight on our "Last" free night?" I was curious to what she wanted to do first before I made any kind of plan. "I think we should watch movies and get completely wasted. Who wants to remember their last night as a kid anyways?" She laughed, I laughed with her. "Its perfect, yes this is a perfect night. Together we will begin a process that we have dreamed of all this time!" I just smiled and said "Perfect."

The night came on the wings of some unseen force. Ignored it, we watched movies, she began to drink. I pretended to, in truth i really didn't like to drink much, but I liked to see how others reacted to it, call it a secondary interest. It wasn't long before I could tell she was feeling the effects, I decided to go ahead and give it my best shot. This one moment would either be my best, or my worst moment of my life, but I had to know. One way or another.

"So, are you hungry?" She just laughed at me. "Very well, I have a offer to make you: You know all that food I brought. I will bet you oh...one hundred dollars that you can't eat all of it and be finished by morning." I was smiling now. "Oh, well played you devious minded girl, you. Protecting yourself and indulging in our greatest fantasy all at the same time. I couldn't have done it better myself." The inner voice said. I ignored it for now. It was true but didn't warrant a reply at the moment. I was waiting to see what she'd do and say. I was terrified.