Weight creeping up during lockdown

chapter 1

Well, could blame lockdown for it but then again sitting about and eating whenever I feel like eating has taken it's toll.

Now at my heaviest I've caught up with my sister... well almost... but the main thing that made me get the tape measure and stand on the scales for the first time in a while was thinking...

Has my weight gone up?

Answer was yes, now 10 years ago when I really wanted to bust out of the 60 inch mark over the top of the standard tape measure I'd have been overjoyed about it, but having to grab my jeans to lift the limb up to remove my shoes at night

And shortness of breath if trying to hurry to catch the shop round the corner late on before 7pm or running after a bus... strained breathing and chest pains...

if it's the weight gain causing it then the weight will have to go by any means I can use to lose it...

if the strained breathing and pain in the lungs is nothing to do with the weight it's a tempting thought to try to gain more but there are other issues that my weight is affecting even before this recent gain.

I used to have absolute killer sex performance but thanks to my weight that's gone out the window due to a roll of fat just above the crotch which is restricting blood and causing erectile problems... mainly if I get it up and the girl decides on a hand job then sex is out the window completely, I'm not embarressed by that but disappointed in many ways...

But the issue of weight and bulk size is of concern, though a few female's out there would like to see me get bigger, fatter and rounder I won't be intentionally gaining weight as I think it's causing a catalogue of health problems that I just can't physically handle for much longer.

Out and about in in the local park and over to another park I go to in summer months and a bit of walking at my own pace with plenty to drink should maybe fix the breathing.

How did I get up over the 50ins mark then the 55ins mark?

With the help of belly inflation, and as I'm very experienced with that and know my limitations, I maxed myself out with air inflations using an array of different pumps, the effect that aided weight gain - it stretched my stomach as well as my bowel cavity (which meant the bog got hit hard too) as I could eat more the weight went up.

Biggest year of gain 2002 from january 39.5ins to 49.5ins round the waist, eating what many would call a weeks meals in one evening, weight gain shakes for a weight boost...

But when the world of having a desire to get fatter and fatter without limits clashes with everyday health like now in 2021... my health and well being comes first.

Weight I'm at just now has probally killed my sexual performance for good but I'm not going to let the weight kill me, not for any individual or for the general fat community on FF, being fat positive is one thing but being persuaded and even pressurised into getting fatter I don't need.

Breathing problems I have experienced from a very young age are asthmatic though I've never had inhalers but could be getting them soon the way things are going... and I am fortunate that coronavirus hasn't got me though I'm immune to the infection so no symptoms it could break through my defences if I gain much more weight and weight is causing current health problems.

For those who can gain weight and blast out to 70 to 90 inches at the waist, good luck trying for your goals but I'm not going to try it myself full stop.