Chapter 1 - Introduction

Hello! My nickname here is Bird, can’t give out my real name. This is my true story about my weight gain, in real time. I’m starting out at 180lbs, and my goal is around 300-350.

I’m 20 years old, nonbinary, and my pronouns are they/them. I’m currently single, but I have a casual relationship with a feeder/friend.

My story is a little different from others, but I don’t think it’s completely unique.

Ever since I was little I had a weight gain fetish. Most of my first early arousals had to do with the concept of gaining weight. Children’s cartoons where a character would be fat for an episode definitely gave me an awakening. But when I was about 7, I guess I internalized a lot of shame with this fetish and it slowly progressed into a restrictive eating disorder that completely consumed me by the time I was 12.

My lowest weight was 115lbs at a height of 5’10”. At this point I was dying and had to be hospitalized. I put on about 30lbs in rehab, and for years after that I struggled with on and off relapses, but I could never get below 145lbs.

My freshman year of college I struggled really badly with a binge/purge cycle that really messed me up. When I came home, things were difficult due to my parents being hyper-religious and abusive, and I was kicked out a few months later and I didn’t have the time for an eating disorder anymore. I also didn’t have a lot of money, so food became a luxury and I ate as much as I could cos I didn’t know where my next meal would come from.

Now, I’m more stable. I’m on food stamps so I luckily have access to food at all times, and I live with a trans guy who is generally body positive and although he’s not aware of my fetish, we have talked about my relationship with food and he said he would be supportive of any weight gain I experienced.

I started becoming more active in online fetish forums like this one, and I decided that maybe a final act of defiance to my eating disorder would be to submit to my fetish and gain the weight. I found a feeder who lived in my city, and we hit it off immediately. His name is Jack (name changed) and we get along great and he has helped with my weight gain and with emotional support, as he’s aware of my history of an eating disorder.

It was harder than expected, I admit. There was a period after I hit about 175 where I balked and started relapsing. It didn’t stick, and I realized that being skinny never made me happy, it just made me sick and honestly ruined my life. So I’m back on the gain train for good.

I have a genetic connective tissue disorder called Ehler-Danlos Syndrome, and it’s a progressive disease with no cure. It means that I’m in pain a lot and my mobility is limited, and I wear a lot of joint braces due to the fact that my joints are prone to dislocating and hyperextending. Due to this, I can’t get huge without severely impacting my quality of life. I’m expecting to not be able to get much bigger than 300lbs. That’s okay, immobility was never something I even fantasized about, and I still value my independence and my career path will need me to be able to at least be able to walk.

Right now, I’m officially classed as overweight! I’m the biggest I’ve ever been, and I wanna get even bigger. I’m 5’10” and 180lbs. Jack’s next goal for me is 200lbs, and I can’t wait!

I have a little belly, my thigh gap is gone, and most of my clothes from when I was anorexic don’t fit anymore. It’s great.

A little note before I close out: I don’t intend this to be an erotica of any sort. I want to share my story of an anorexic turned feedee, because I know I can’t be the only one who struggled with an eating disorder while secretly getting off to the idea of weight gain. I want others who may be reading this late at night hating themselves for being a hypocrite to know that it’s okay! And that you can kick your eating disorder and submit to your fantasy and you’ll survive, and be much happier for it.

I’m of course going to give you all the gritty details of how fat I’m going to get and how much of a pig I’ll become, but this isn’t a great read for wanking off cos I will probably be mentioning my disorder and some personal info that isn’t exactly a hot read haha.

Thanks for reading this far. I’ll update again once I reach 200lbs, and I’ll also post some photos of when I was skinny and photos of how I look now!