chapter 7

Lily: Mommy I'm so full.. feeling so full..

She smiles and sucks slowly on her tube...

So stuffed from dinner, but wanting to feed

so badly..to keep filling her belly, leaving

no room for hurt feelings, or any bad feelings

at all..

Drifting off to sleep Lily has a beautiful thought..

*to grow so big never to move again*

These thoughts occured over and over..

during the weekend..

Lily wanting to grow, never see anyone again,

just Mom...to fill a room with her body...

and never leave it...a small army of caregivers

keeping her clean and sanitary, but Lily never

having to look at or talk to them, a perfect world.

Sunday evening came and Lily had spent most of the

weekend sleeping or napping as well as gorging on

anything edible, mom being kept busy serving her

dish after dish of big dinners, small dinners, lots

of treats and desserts..*endless*

Honey, you have eaten steady for 2 days...what is..

the matter with you..anxious thinking about Monday?

Lily: I hope Jody breaks her back trying to lift me...

Inga: Now honey..you don't mean that..you know

what I said..things will work out...

Lily: I do mean it I was nice to her..now I hurt..

Inga had never seen Lily acting out this way..

she figured Lily must feel strongly about Jody

was it love? Lily's first crush?

After supper Inga rolled in Lily's bath care table...

A heated stainless steel sink on wheels..about...

2 feet deep, and carrying all sorts of creams and

lotions, on the table for Lily's skin

Here honey, let me put your tube away for now...

I'm going to give you a nice sponge bath ..

with hot water, your lavender soap...so you can

relax some before bed time.. wind down a bit...

Inga soaks a soft cloth in hot water squeezes it

out and lays it on Lily's fat face..*moans*

Yes, it feels good baby girl..I used to give you

these baths every night when you were little..

Do you remember? Yes mom, I remember..

You would sleep right through the night...

That was before your feeding tube..now that

is what relaxes you..maybe we should go back

to this again honey..scrap that old tube..

Lily whimpers...uh uh mom..you know I can't

live without it...

Inga moves the hot cloth on to Lily's arm..

rubbing gently..humming softly..it's been so

long Baby girl..so long..now look what a big..

girl you are...so big mommy can't handle you

by herself anymore....Lily smiles then puts

on a pout and laughs...

Inga: Don't you be cheeky to me..smiles.*kisses*

Lily is asleep..mom wheels the table out...

An hour later while Inga is in the kitchen on her

laptop she hears the familiar moans and whimper

of her daughter...Hi honey I filled it up when you

fell asleep...here you go ..Lily takes her tube into

her mouth and is asleep again...

Inga kisses her cheek, strokes her hair and says

*goodnight darling*

Monday morning is cloudy with light showers..

Inga brushes Lily's hair after feeding her a big

sausage and waffle breakfast...Lily has her tube

and looks content...no signs of anxiety that she

showed the day before..

Lily even had her little smile back on her face..

At 9am the door bell rang..the nurses were there..

Inga put away Lily's tube and closed up the

cupboard hiding the weight gain barrel...

Lily's comfort station..*so fattening*

As the ladies entered they greeted Inga with

Sharon and Kitty hugging her,"good to see you"

"good to see you girls"

"Hello Jody".."Hi Inga"..seeming a little shy....

"Come here" said Inga..she opened her arms

and gave Jody a big hug...Jody looked up..

tears welling up in her eyes...I know how

much I hurt Lily..I've thought of nothing else

since I left on Friday..I must have hurt her so

much... You did honey..but if I were you I would

talk to Lily...before we begin the day...

"Okay I will" and Jody headed for Lily's room..

The door was slightly ajar and Jody caught a

glimpse of the massive girl..the tingle that

went through her was the tingle she got on

the first day she saw her.. the feelings she

tried to block out, denying them to herself

Jody pushed the door open..my god look at

her.."Hello Lily..its me Jody" Lily lifted her

eyes from her bed and saw the beautiful

blue eyed girl as she first saw her on the

first day, the Friday. That long auburn hair

like fire.. "I know its you Jody"..Lily smiles..

Jody: Lily, I just want to say that I'm sorry

what you heard me saying on the

phone, I am ashamed..saying what I

did because I couldn't face my feelings,

The moment I first saw you I was in awe,

you're so beautiful, and bathing you..

and helping you that morning was like

a dream come true..I would do anything

to make you forget my crappy behaviour...

Lily: I know you would..mom said you were...

a good person not wanting to hurt me..

as much as hiding your real feelings..

I am ready to start over if you are...

But, I warn you Jody..this is me..

This is how I want to be right now.

I don't want anybody trying to make

me into someone I'm not..I may end

up not being able to move at all...

Jody: The way you are is what attracted..

me to you..I've always wanted to

know someone so fat they needed

help with everything. I just hope I

can be a good friend as well as...

helping you with all your needs....

Lily: Now Jody what did you say about

making me forget your crappy behaviour ?

Jody: that I would do anything....

Lily: Will you kiss me ?

Jody: Oh yes...

Lily puckers her lips, Jody stretches up and kisses

Lily's lips..slowly..*so warm*

Jody: Yum what is that flavour on your lips...

*Lily smiles* you'll find out some day....

Knock knock.. comeon girls we have work to do..

giggling from outside the room...Lily? Jody?

....laughing and more knocking..

We're ready..

Inga: We talked it over girls and we're all eating

lunch at the table today..even the fat girl we all

love and care for...lots of giggles as the ladies

prepare to move Lily to her commode...*so fat*

*so immensely fat*