The diary of an insatiable girl

Chapter 17 - day 35

I woke up feeling… well, not exactly good, but definitely a lot better than I felt last night. I guess it served as some kind of comfort when nobody burst in through the window like I was half expecting. I know it’s stupid, but I just couldn’t help it. I guess I never knew what a true fear feels like before. Anyway… right now I’m too hungry to feel anything but hunger, so Melissa and I are heading for breakfast before our first class starts. Got to go, Melissa is finally ready to head out.





I vaguely remember having a plan on how to stick to healthy food, but it went out of the window as soon as I started putting food on my tray. You wouldn’t believe how much food can fit on a single tray, when you’re really trying to fit as much of it as you can. Still, it could barely dull the most severe hunger pangs I felt and so I had to go for a seconds. We’ll pretend the next two trips didn’t happen, ok? We’ve got to go to class now. I would have felt better if I shared it with either Melissa or Abby, but I’m gonna have to manage on my own. To make things worse I’m running out of clothes. Again! I’m spilling out of my largest bra a lot and my top is stretched so much by my boobs, it’s almost see through! It’s going to be really difficult not to be noticed like this…





Well, that went well… I’m back in the canteen. I found out I couldn’t concentrate at all on what the professor was talking about, instead looking around the auditorium, thinking whether my stalker was there as well. I watched the little groups of guys, wondering who looked like a stalker, but the more I looked, the more they appeared like one. It made me feel so scared and empty inside! It’s really hard to describe. That’s why I’m back in the canteen, stuffing myself full of sweets. I already ate a whole honey cake! I know it’s far from ideal, but it helps. It’s pretty much the only thing I can do to fill the void inside of me. I texted the girls, hoping they would join me. I really don’t want to be alone…





I’m really lucky to have friends like Melissa and Abby. Abby was in the canteen fifteen minutes after I texted her and Melissa arrived maybe five minutes after her. We sat there for most of the day doing little more than stuffing our faces. Or that’s how I decided to remember it. It was quite clear I did most of the eating. Regardless, both of my best friends left the canteen clutching their overstuffed bellies, despite eating only a fraction of what I managed to devour. I don’t think my belly was ever as huge as it was right now after we got to our dorm. I look seriously pregnant. With triplets! My t-shirt was obviously too small to cover my bloated middle and so I had to walk around the campus with my middle bare. I really don’t give a damn who saw it… Since I still have the appointment with ‘doctor Feeder’, as Abby started to call the nice doctor, I need some piece of clothing to fit me. Melissa suggested sewing up a toga from our bedsheets, I’m not even sure if she was joking or not… Luckily we have a friend who is even bigger than we are. Abby offered to lend me one of her big, tent-like shirts, she wore for sleeping. It is so big! So comfy! It’s not even too snug over my chest! I should better go to that appointment. I’m really curious what doctor Feeder is going to tell me.





Doctor Feeder is spot on! But I’m getting ahead of things… The doctor was quite shocked to see how different I looked from only yesterday. I tried to recall everything I ate today, but I’m quite sure I only mentioned like a half of what I’ve actually eaten. However the doctor seemed convinced it was the reason behind my bloated middle. The nurse took me to another room and took my measurements again… My chest is an inch bigger than it was only yesterday! I refused to step on a scale though… Then it happened. When the nurse walked me back to the doctor and there was a huge mountain of food waiting for me. The doctor gave me a little shrug, saying he still wasn’t entirely convinced about my condition. Asshole! He’s lucky he’s so cute! Anyway… I ate all of the food, unable to even stand up afterwards. I guess you must be thinking I couldn’t really be hungry after eating all day and you would be right. I wasn’t hungry… The thing is I can always eat more. The real mystery is why I agreed to come again tomorrow morning… That’s it for today. Uh... Talk to you soon?