Obviously this is going to be a "your mileage may vary" kind of thing. It's been kinda difficult to influence my weight in either direction, but at the same time, I do kinda eat what I want. I exercise regularly but my weight still hovers where it's been after I'm off my gainer kicks. I used to be 125 when I found this site and I'm 155 now. Been this weight for over a year.

If you do lose weight, you also have to consider that you've made fat cells that aren't going to go away, and slipping back into old habits are going to put the weight back on you easily.

Browsing some of the "how big do you hope to be threads" I've seen people post that got pretty huge from all different starting points. I'm sure there have been quite a few on this site.

You've had quite the rollercoaster so far, but hopefully your indulging gets you where you want to be! I can definitely relate to having fat-hating folks, but I'm glad you've got the drive to make things happen for yourself.

You're going to blow up pretty quickly at least up to your old peak weight, maybe a few more pounds after, thanks to the whole yo-yo dieting effect.

Welcome to the site, and I wish you best of luck on your journey!

That's really awesome to hear! I'm happy you were able to help him be honest with himself!

I can find beauty in skinnier girls, but definitely my preference lies in fat. Ideally, I think I'd be pretty happy with a woman that's 300-400lbs. I think highest I'd consider would be 500.

That said, a few things can torpedo this. First and foremost, I'd rather her not be miserable or regretting that she's big. I'd much rather date a woman that's happy and skinny than miserable that she's fat. If that's the case, definitely would help her lose weight. Secondly, I still want to do things with her, so I'm fine with walking slow so she can keep up, but I'd rather not have her immobile. Health issues don't do it for me either, so I'd help her lose weight to mitigate that as well.

I'm pretty sure a woman wouldn't get to 500lbs without tripping the other caveats, hell, I think I'd be hard pressed to find someone in the 300s without some health issues.

Didn't you just start another topic that said that you want your boyfriend to not exercise so he doesn't lose weight?

EDIT: Here's OP's post.

^What Ditzy said. Forcing your fetish onto someone isn't cool at all.

Also, didn't you just post another topic saying that you've never been in a relationship?

I work in a hospital. Lots of overweight and obese nurses, you'll fit right in haha.

Well, best of luck finding that someone! Happy gaining!

I'm gonna be the one to say, it's going to be harder to get down to where you originally were, so you might want to save gaining for a later time like say when your metabolism starts slowing down. Your girlfriend not liking it may also play a good factor if you still love her and she isn't understanding that you want to get fat.

That said, I also think people look better fat. Getting stigma from getting fat comes with the territory, but it could be a rewarding thing if it means that much to you, and it seems like you're a bit conflicted to really follow all the way through. I say this because I've felt similar doubts about gaining, and certain circumstances I don't feel like dealing with are the reasons I haven't gone all the way. I'm 20lbs heavier over the course of 5 years, but ultimately I'm wanting to find a woman who wants to fatten me up and a stable job that will sufficiently fund that, plus I need to get away from some people in my life.

I do wonder what I'd look like if I started gaining like crazy as soon as I hit 18, but ultimately, it hasn't been the right time. I'd recommend holding off for now as it seems like you aren't ready at the moment.

We're looking forward to hearing which way you go anyhow, and we wish it puts you onto a happier and more fulfilled life.