That was sort of my goal all along, at least the "always eating" part. When I decided to fatten up, I imagined myself slowly waddling across a mall food court in too-small clothes, ordering enough food for three people, then sitting down, feeling my well-fed bottom engulf the seat, and eating and eating as I feel my clothes grow tighter.

I knew that ultimately, my goal was to look like I did little more than sit, eat, and grow large and soft with food.

Not being able to direct where the weight goes. A lot of my weight goes to my belly whereas it took me awhile before I got a proper double chin, boobs, and plump arms.

I thought I was going up north for Christmas, so I shaved my face entirely so I wouldn't need clippers when I was up there and I was amazed at how I've now developed a prominent double chin while my jawline has completely vanished. My neck now has rolls even when I'm not tilting my head.

My ultimate goal is to look soft, porky, and well-fed, and I think (hope) now anyone who looks at my face will see a chubby doughboy who spends his time sitting, eating, and growing larger and softer.

It would help if chat were livelier. This is such an interesting bunch of fetishes, you'd think people would want to talk. Instead, it goes to PM pretty quick and the people PMing with me couldn't hold up a conversation. Sample answers:

Yeah
Cool
So are you gonna get immobile soon?
Keep eating fatboy
Hey, can you help me out? I just need a little money.....

None of them, and this is after at least five years on chat, could talk like a normal person. Even when it was sexy talk. I'd tell them in detail about my gain and my response would be, "That's hot. Gain another 100 lbs."

In the forums, people are more open, but the elephant in the room is that a lot of people here either want to date a fat/gaining person or wants someone who wants to date a fat/gaining person, but unless you're female or a gay man, nobody's interested.

[quote]littlejohnboy:
The unfortunate thing is because fat and gaining are so outside "the norm," there is a much smaller (ironic, huh?) number of people who share our interests. This means we frequently end up with long distance relationships. /quote]

This is something I've struggled with. I didn't have too much problem accepting that I found fat sexy, but I did not (and still don't) like the notion that my dating pool is very, very small if I insist on exercising this fetish for myself or someone else.

Add to that the usual complaints. I haven't had many people begging me for $ since I quit Feabie, but this site seems like it's like 80 percent guys, any woman get swarmed here, and I've found very few people who can hold up a conversation in chat even if it's about gaining.

One of the first episodes of the Beavis and Butt-head revival in the early '10s was about weight gain. They saw Morgan Spurlock on an awards show and deduced that he got rich, famous, and dated a hot chick (who he was dating before anyway) by stuffing himself with food and they could, too. They stuff themselves for a month and gain an impressive amount of weight.

I certainly wouldn't consider either character sexy, but I did enjoy the progression of their weight gain from guts hanging out under their T-shirts to morbidly obese and almost immobile.

I've mentioned before that one of the most insightful things I read here was that if you get turned on by the prospect of being fat, you pleasure yourself, and afterwards, you are glad you're not fat, don't do it.

Often people think if something turns them on, they are obligated to embrace and express it, but there's a reason why people have sexual FANTASIES. Getting fat is a big commitment.

I did and he just chuckled and said don't gain more than 20 lbs (for what it's worth, he was an MD).

Gaining weight turns you on, but how do you feel after you've pleasured yourself? Do you still wish you were fat? If not, then it's best to keep gaining as a fantasy.

If you ask "should I gain?" on here, everyone is going to tell you to do it (and, of course, chronicle it for all of us), but you have to remember that you will be carrying around that fat body 24 hours a day. Someone who, say, likes dressing in women's clothes can do it and pleasure themselves and then go out and live a normal life. If you're fat, people will see it every day and will not know you deliberately did it.

It's a hard decision, especially since the common attitude towards sexuality nowadays is "if it feels good, do it" as long as it doesn't harm someone else. However, there are physical and social consequences to gaining weight that you will have to consider and eventually deal with if you do decide to gain.

I graduated high school in 1995, so we had very early internet....I'm pretty sure I just happened upon this article, "The Joy of Fat," since it was reprinted in Harpers, not looking for it, on the computer in my high school library.

www.thefreelibrary.com/The+joy+of+fat.-a015172957