Quarantine disaster

Chapter 1 - day 1 of covid quarantine

I can’t believe I’ve gotten laid off work. What am I going to do? I guess I could catch up on some Netflix, make some of the recipes I’ve been looking at on Pinterest, I could catch up on workouts, clean, read, do some art, there’s tons of stuff to do! I think of all the stuff I could do, but the only thing that really appealed to me, was sitting down, watching movies and eating all the caloric, fatty food I want and stuffing my gut until I can’t move from the couch to my bed and helplessly pass out on the couch. Besides, what other worries do I really have? I don’t have to wake up to go to work tomorrow, I don’t need to go anywhere because there’s not many places open anyways, besides maybe Tim Hortons, to grab a dozen of doughnuts, cookies and other treats! On the upside, fast food is still available. And so is Uber Eats, so I don’t even have to leave my house!

I’ve always had a desire to let go completely, and get fat. Eat all the junk I want to, because I have a massive sweet tooth! I love cake, cookies, chocolate, candy, all the sweet and all the salty! Oh and of course I love the creamy stuff too. I remember as a kid. I would eat tubs of ice cream, I would dig into them at night when my parents were sleeping, because if I didn’t I would be nagged by my mom, telling me “If you keep eating all that ice cream, you’re going to get fat!” And sure enough, I did get fat. I was up to almost 200lbs at age 11 or 12 and as much as I knew it was unhealthy to be that fat, at such a young age, I think about getting back to that now, and how my body would look, over 200lbs.

I took this self distancing thing as the perfect opportunity to actually indulge and pursue this dream of letting myself go. Purposely this time. I want to feel my clothes get tighter, my belly get bigger, my face get chubby and full like the rest of my body. I just want to indulge in nothing but fattening, rich, filling and delicious food! Knowing the result of all that food and all my greedy overindulgence is visibly making a change to my body is so hot to me. I would also love to find a feeder to help fatten me while we quarantine together, rub my belly and maybe some funnel feeding, teasing? Perhaps I’ll look online and see who’s down to help get me fatter! I want to come back into the world and go back to work much fatter, so fat I’m almost unrecognizable. That would be ideal.