chapter 1

July 17th 2010


12:45pm

‘Oi lazy wake up! Everyone’s here waiting for you!’ Grace shouts startling me awake


‘Grace? What are you doing here?’ I ask rubbing my eyes tiredly


‘It’s Saturday Emily, your mom invited everyone round for a BBQ, how the fuck do you sleep in so late?’ Grace, my cousin, asks sarcastically


‘*** grace let me wake up properly before you start annoying me!’ I snap groggily


‘Ha! The way your duvet is, you look like one of those big fat woman who can’t get out of bed! Grace mocks


‘Get out then so I can get ready!’ I snap


Grace huffed and left the room, I looked down to my bed covers and it was true, the end and sides of my duvet were curled under, it looks like I had a massive belly sitting on top of my legs, I slowly parted my legs so that they were either side of the duvet and rubbed the quilt seductively like it was an actual belly, i imagined being this fat, i imagine not be able to get out of bed, I felt my panties get a little wet so I quickly jumped out of bed.


I walked downstairs and my entire family were sitting outside, my uncle Gary, graces dad was flipping burgers and hotdogs on the bbq whilst my mum, aunty Elena and grandma drank sangria and chatted in Spanish to each other, Grace was sitting with my aunty Dee, my dads sister, talking about boys.


‘Hey everyone’ I waved as I walked into the garden


‘Hey lazy!’ My uncle chuckled


‘Shut up Gary!’ I laughed


‘Oh beautiful granddaughter of mine!’


‘Hola grandma!’ I say leaning over her large body to give her a kiss, my grandma, mom and graces mom we’re all very big women, apparently my mom was the heaviest at one point weighing 450 pound but she lost a lot of weight when my dad left her. My uncle was a pretty slim man only getting a little belly as he’s gotten older. My aunty Dee, who my mom is she pretty close with, is the heaviest, she weighs about 480 and loves it! She doesn’t ever moan about her weight in fact she gloats about it, she boasts about how much she can each and I’ve heard her telling my mom about how men fall head over heels for her!


‘Come come us Emily’ Aunty Dee insists ‘I’ve got your favourite!’ She follows up waving a bag of chilli heatwave Doritos. I’ve already been close to my aunty Dee for some reason, probably closer to her than my own mother, she just seems to understand, she not as strict and she always seems to know what’s best for me.


I plonk my skinny ass next to her plump rump and dig my hand into the bag of Doritos


‘Mph! Sooo goood!’ I say devouring a handful before reaching in for more


‘Easy on them kiddo! BBQ’s nearly ready’ uncle Gary informs me


‘Oh don’t listen to him, you tuck in, you could do with some meat on your bones! Just like your aunty! Dee says patting her large belly lovingly


‘Yeah Emily, keep eating! That’ll be your future!’ Grace whispered into my ear


‘Shut up Grace!’ I snap refraining myself from grabbing another handful of Doritos


‘Oi there’s nothing wrong with having a full figure like me! Trust me grace men love my body!’ Aunty Dee chuckled cockily


With that a quickly grabbed another handful and shovelled them into my mouth


‘That’s the spirit girl! Speaking of men, you’re 16 now, got anything boyfriends Emily?’ Dee asks also grabbing a handful of Doritos


‘No really but there is a boy in my science class I like’ I admit shyly


‘Really? What’s his name?’


‘He’s names Tom, he’s so clever and has me in stitches!’ I tell Dee


‘You fancy Tom?’ Grace smirks


‘What’s wrong with that grace?’ Aunty Dee asks


‘He’s such a nerd! Literally Dee he’s a proper science geek, I’m not even sure if he has any friends!’ Grace cackles mocking Tom

‘Oh grace you are such a wind up! Don’t listen to her Emily, you do what makes you happy in life, like me for example my mother always told me to stop eating and find a nice man to marry but I know that wasn’t me, I love being a bigger woman who can’t be tamed!’ Dee laughed subconsciously patting her stomach


‘Foods ready!’ Uncle Gary says


I grab a hotdog and a burger plus a handful of fries and potato salad, I sit back down next to aunty Dee who has 2 plates piled high with food. I quickly make my way through my food before anyone else has finished, still hungry I decide to grab some more, I grab 3 more hotdogs and more fries.


‘Seconds Emily?’ My mother glares from across the garden


‘Yes mom it’s a bbq!’ I huff rolling my eyes


‘Ignore her Emily, you eat as much as you want! Never done me any harm’ Aunty Dee encourages me tucking into her third burger


I follow in my aunties footsteps and hastily polish off my second plate of food...with ease


‘I’m still hungry’ I say under my breath


‘Go get something else to eat Emily’ Aunty Dee says


‘I can’t everyone will judge me...apart from you anyway’


‘Here take my plate whilst no one is looking, I’ll go grab another, no one will question me getting seconds!’ Dee laughs


I accept her offer and begin tearing through my third plate of food! I watched in owe as Aunty Dee sat down with 2 more loaded plates and effortlessly made her way through them!